Absent Again

So I am obviously horrible at keeping Max's blog up to date. I have been so crazy busy and for quite a while I have had night sickness. Entering my second trimester has relieved much of that though. And yes you read that correctly we are expecting!!!
Very happy, excited, blessed, and most of all God has been so close. The fear that I would have expected and had the last pregnancy is small, most of the time I am so present in the present I have no worry, no fear. And when it has crept in Jesus has made it clear to 'knock it off'.

We did know about the pregnancy before we accepted the girls. We prayed about it and took into consideration the costs and time, we know we have been blessed to give both. Dustin works from home and I can work from home with a majority of my hours, my photography and other work is mainly home based. So we made the choice if God's plan is to bring those girls to the states we will have our hearts and home open to them.

Where is that right now?

Well there is still people working tirelessly to get the girls to the states. So it may still happen, we have faith and pray for God's will. I do think about the other side; what if the girls come here and then have to leave, is it a positive thing for them then? That is why I pray for God's will, I don't know what is best for them. Regardless of what happens I know I will make sure to be a part of Jesumine and Marie's life even if it is from a distance. We have done the paperwork, now it is in God's hands and that's where it's at. So please pray for all the children of Haiti, it is not a country any child would pick to be born, it can be a tragic life and now in the aftermath of the earthquake it will be even worse.

My dear friend Katie is over in Haiti working right now for Star of Hope. She has a blog that has some great stories of the people from Haiti. She has such a heart for the Haitians as she has been there on Mission trips, I think about 5 times before the earthquake. I love reading the stories she shares and also look forward to seeing any pictures she shares.

So back to the news...
We are praying and really enjoying Maxson's lil bro/sis...There have been some moments that have been bittersweet, already. Sometimes just the memories that come back from being pregnant with Max. Sometimes just that I am excited and already loving a baby that isn't Max. In all the joy it is okay to have some sadness it truly makes my heart melt in a different type of way I ever felt before when I was pregnant.

I did have a rough start and after day 90 of being nauseated and throwing up I was trying to focus on how thankful I was to be pregnant...ha ha, it was rough but I am feeling better. All worth it.

Anyway, sorry for my absence I am going to try and write more. Not only do I enjoy writing I enjoy being connected to many of you out there that I think of often and pray for. I will write soon.

with love,


Michelle said...

I am so so happy for you! I was sick for the entire nine months of my pregnancy with twins. All worth it for the joys I have now. I did not experience a loss, but did feel that ache for a child due to infertility for quite a while. Even though I know it will not take the ache of missing Max away, hopefully this will bring you some peace.

Michelle in SC

Laura said...


What amazing news. Each day is a new adventure....praying for peace and hope to fill your heart. I am smiling for you...can't wait to see pictures of your smiling face!

Jill said...

You don't know me. I have followed your blog for a very long time. But I just had to say how happy I am for you right now. Blessings are coming your way. Please tell us more and keep us posted. I suspect there are many others like me out there who care.

Jacquie said...

I was just going to log ont today and call you a tease for your last blog.
See that! Looks like it was worth the wait.
Every happiness!

Tammy On the Go said...

This is all so wonderful and amazing and I am so happy you will get a chance to mother these girls as well as this new baby! so happy for you...

Stacy D said...

Congratulations!!! So happy for you and Dust. ANd you described it perfectly... bittersweet. Praying for you as you continue to navigate this pregnancy and prepare for Maxson's little brother or sister's arrival. He/She will not replace Max, that's for sure... but will come to hold his/her own special place in your heart. Feel free to email anytime you want to talk about this next "phase" of life after loss... Praying for you!

Carla said...


Angie said...

I also have been following your blog for quite sometime. I am so happy for you and know that God has given you another precious gift!

I also had a miscarriage around the time you did and am so glad that you are now pregnant and only hope that I soon will join you!

God bless and hopefully you will start the happy and health fun part of pregnancy soon :)

Jennjilla said...

What awesome news, congrats! I'm not too far behind you and look forward to having a new addition in the fall! I feel ya on feeling bad, that is really not fun! I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes well!

Anonymous said...

Way cool!! Congratulations to you and Dustin! I wish you were in Williston so I could be your nurse again, but I will have to settle for hearing how everything is going from a distance. This baby has a wonderful little angel watching over you all.
Amy J. RN

melissa said...

How amazing! I'm so excited for you to be welcoming another little one to your family.

sharon said...

I am so excited for you!! Isn't God awesome!!
The first thing I thought about while reading this, is the story of Job. He lost everything but still managed to worship God, and look how God blessed him! I have read your blogspot for a while now. I can't tell you how much some of your posts have ministered. God has chosen you to pour out an extra blessing on you. Congratulations!!

Sara said...

Praising God with you... that is just awesome news:) I will be praying for your heart, and for the Lord's hand to continue to be on you and your little one as He continues to knit that little one together... YAY GOD!!

Rachel E. said...

Congratulations on your pregnancy! I'm so happy for you two.

Tonia said...

Congratulations on your pregnancy! Praying for God's will in all the situations - this baby, the girls, etc.

Glad to "hear" from you again through your post!