It's a funny thing, when I was pregnant with Maxson around this time I was content. I don't remember getting to the end of the day and wanting the day of his birth to come. I truly lived in the moment and cherished it. I wish that would have been a forever implanted skill/lesson. But no. I dream of the day of Eli's birth and all the moments to come, and at certain small moments, when he is kicking just so I live in the now, ever so content just not ever so often.
The whole idea of leaving the hospital with a baby has through out this pregnancy seemed surreal. This weekend we finished Eli's baby's room, well almost. And honestly I can say that the thought of him sleeping in this nursery is surreal. All of these unbelievable experiences to come, God willing, seem so far fetched to me, not that I am fearful, I am just so in awe of what a blessing it will be. Truly Max was such an amazing blessing but on that road was so much pain and the planning wasn't for a baby's room it was for a funeral and the possible use of hospice. This is just so different and I think because Max was the first born and that's the only way we've done it... ahh I am getting lost here for words, I just pinch myself... a lot.
With the clock ticking down now...oh so slowly (remember I am not doing a great job of living in the moment) the dday for Eli is October 4th by c-section, unless he decides to come early then I will try a vbac. So seven weeks to go, in just one of the hottest summers ever! But hey, physically I can't complain, I have the heartburn under control and I still don't have cankles (spelling?) anyway, overall we are doing great. No I up that, we are doing wonderful, Dustin and I can't wait for the summer to go and to be holding Eli. I really think the title to this post maybe should wait till 3 weeks out. That sounds like a better number to start counting down from than 7 weeks out. Well whatever, 7 weeks and counting. I will have to share some baby room pics later it is way past my bedtime.
with love,
Trish
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I remember SO well that time of waiting for number 2 and the surreal feeling of actually expecting a healthy baby to take home. I was beyond impatient!
I had to chuckle when you said that him sleeping in a nursery seems surreal...the sleeping part might still be for a while ;) Hopefully you not only have a perfectly healthy safe babe but also one that does sleep a bit. Either way you will feel very very very blessed with Eli in your arms. Will be anticipating news :)
My heart is bursting with joy for you!!!!!
I'm 26.5 weeks along and I find myself thinking and feeling the same way. What will it be like to have a healthy baby?? I really can't think of having a child who doesn't have T18.
I hope you enjoy the few weeks left of your pregnancy.
I have been following your story for some time. I am so happy for you guys! Cant wait to see pics of the little one!
getting very excited!
Praying like CRAZY as the day draws near! :)
Trish! I still think of you girly! Praying for safe delivery for you and Eli! And, thinking of you & Max this next month too! I can't believe it's been almost 2 years! Seeing pictures of Max truly helped bring me peace and joy while waiting to meet Dylan! Thank you for sharing your story! Lots of hugs!
Nicole
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