Ticking Down

It's a funny thing, when I was pregnant with Maxson around this time I was content. I don't remember getting to the end of the day and wanting the day of his birth to come. I truly lived in the moment and cherished it. I wish that would have been a forever implanted skill/lesson. But no. I dream of the day of Eli's birth and all the moments to come, and at certain small moments, when he is kicking just so I live in the now, ever so content just not ever so often.

The whole idea of leaving the hospital with a baby has through out this pregnancy seemed surreal. This weekend we finished Eli's baby's room, well almost. And honestly I can say that the thought of him sleeping in this nursery is surreal. All of these unbelievable experiences to come, God willing, seem so far fetched to me, not that I am fearful, I am just so in awe of what a blessing it will be. Truly Max was such an amazing blessing but on that road was so much pain and the planning wasn't for a baby's room it was for a funeral and the possible use of hospice. This is just so different and I think because Max was the first born and that's the only way we've done it... ahh I am getting lost here for words, I just pinch myself... a lot.

With the clock ticking down now...oh so slowly (remember I am not doing a great job of living in the moment) the dday for Eli is October 4th by c-section, unless he decides to come early then I will try a vbac. So seven weeks to go, in just one of the hottest summers ever! But hey, physically I can't complain, I have the heartburn under control and I still don't have cankles (spelling?) anyway, overall we are doing great. No I up that, we are doing wonderful, Dustin and I can't wait for the summer to go and to be holding Eli. I really think the title to this post maybe should wait till 3 weeks out. That sounds like a better number to start counting down from than 7 weeks out. Well whatever, 7 weeks and counting. I will have to share some baby room pics later it is way past my bedtime.

with love,


Carla said...

I remember SO well that time of waiting for number 2 and the surreal feeling of actually expecting a healthy baby to take home. I was beyond impatient!
I had to chuckle when you said that him sleeping in a nursery seems surreal...the sleeping part might still be for a while ;) Hopefully you not only have a perfectly healthy safe babe but also one that does sleep a bit. Either way you will feel very very very blessed with Eli in your arms. Will be anticipating news :)

Shannon said...

My heart is bursting with joy for you!!!!!

Whitney said...

I'm 26.5 weeks along and I find myself thinking and feeling the same way. What will it be like to have a healthy baby?? I really can't think of having a child who doesn't have T18.
I hope you enjoy the few weeks left of your pregnancy.

Mitch said...

I have been following your story for some time. I am so happy for you guys! Cant wait to see pics of the little one!

Tammy On the Go said...

getting very excited!

boltefamily said...

Praying like CRAZY as the day draws near! :)

Nicole said...

Trish! I still think of you girly! Praying for safe delivery for you and Eli! And, thinking of you & Max this next month too! I can't believe it's been almost 2 years! Seeing pictures of Max truly helped bring me peace and joy while waiting to meet Dylan! Thank you for sharing your story! Lots of hugs!