12.12.2008

A thousand words...




If a picture says a thousand words then this picture speaks volumes... Besides showing the beauty that Maxson possesses, it clearly displays the fight in his eyes and to me there is just so much behind his sweet eyes. I can't find the words... all I know is that he has such a special glimmer in those eyes, I will keep that with me forever. This picture was taken shortly after he was born, they actually just got him breathing before this was taken. I know newborns can't see very far but he was looking directly at me. Max was about 6 to 7 feet from me and his gaze was set directly on me.





Oh, I love and miss my baby so much. I don't know how this deep longing for him will ever let up.


God bless,

Max's mommy

32 comments:

Kristina Petrella said...

what a beautiful, special boy! We will continue to be praying for you. -Kristina

Rebecca Jo said...

Those eyes are incredible... to be so wide eyed while everything was going on & holding your gaze... that is a special moment right there.... thank you for sharing it - what a beautiful son!

Anonymous said...

I am speechless! What a wonderful photo you will have to remember you special little guy.

Christine said...

Max was ABSOLUTELY looking into your eyes, don't think for a second that he wasn't. He saw way more than inches in front of his face. And he now sees EVERYTHING. Especially the depth of the love his Mommy and Daddy have for him.

Alexandra's Mommy said...

What a great picture! Thinking about your family!

The Schulers

Lauren said...

I'm at a loss for words. There is such strength in those little eyes. He is now, and will always be, beautiful and perfect.

Radar's Mom said...

Dear Trish,

One thing I really like about the Buddhist philosophy is the idea of "old souls". That's when someone comes to this world and clearly has the wisdom that far exceeds their time here on earth. Max has that look... infants are only supposed to see a few inches in front of them, but there is so much more in Max's eyes. A wisdom that far surpasses his short time on earth. As if God gave him that wisdom so that he could savor his life, his family and love so very deeply in the time that he was given. He is so beautiful and I am so glad that you were able to capture his beauty and his spirit in such a perfect picture.

Keeping you, Dustin and Max in my daily prayers.

Hugs,
Christena

Mrs. Mother said...

Oh, he was beautiful. Four months have passed and I still have a longing to hold my baby girl in my arms, especially now that her due date is coming close. Big hugs to you.

Nicole said...

He is absolutely one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen! I am so glad you were able to look into his heavenly eyes! Praying for a peaceful weekend.

Love, Nicole

Kathleen said...

Oh, my, a dose of love straight from heaven!!! What an expression of divine love - straight from the Father. It took my breath away when the post came up.

Praying for you and Dustin and the celebration of Maxson's life.

Love & prayers

Eric and Jessica said...

Still praying for you and all your family. When reading all your blogs from before Max was born I saw him as a little boy with such personality and presence. I had to keep reminding myself that he would be born a little baby, with the baby look. But he has surprised me again in that he looks just like you described him before he was even born. So smart and wise, full of personality and life, no matter how short it was on earth. I think you can see down from Heaven, certain things. I think that you are so close to God that your understanding and ability to know things far surpasses what we understand and know down here. Heaven never seemed so close until I had someone so close in Heaven. Now it feels just next door and not to far off. He is honestly a gorgeous boy! I will be praying that Max's celebration of life goes perfect and you find comfort in seeing all those that love him so much. -Jessica

Aunt Becky said...

He is just so breathtakingly beautiful. I'm thinking of the three of you today.

Kristin (kekis) said...

I truly think that Max is such an amazingly beautiful little boy. His features are perfect and precious. I have been thinking of you both, and praying for your peace and comfort. You will be in my heart tomorrow as you celebrate the life, love and joy that your beautiful Max brought to everyone.

Thank you for continuing to share your little miracle with us.

Courtney said...

So absolutely gorgeous...What beautiful eyes! I'm still praying...God Bless.

Jess said...

I think he looks like you, Trish. I don't know, I've never met you in person, but I can see you in his eyes. I am honored that you have let us all be a part of this special time.

Jen said...

I don't know you- but I prayed for you today,driving home I heard Plumb's song "God Will Take Care of You" and thought it sounded like a lullaby. God brought Stacy and Spencer of the blog "He will Carry Me" to mind, and then right after,you,your husband, and sweet Max.I hope you can feel the prayers of so many,just hoping to lighten the burden the least bit. Your son is beautiful.May you feel God's arms wrap around you both during this time.

cancersucks said...

The photos are breathtaking. Thoughts and prayers with you tomorrow. I know it is going to be a difficult day for you both. But I know you WILL get through it. Be well.

Julie said...

Oh wow - that is just incredible. What a beautiful, beautiful boy. Crying with you tonight.

Sending many, many prayers (and hugs).

Just an ordinary woman said...

He is gorgeous.. what a beautiful boy.. and such deep eyes.. like you can see into his soul..

It is a picture you will always treasure!

Carla Burlando said...

What a treasured memory and photograph! Thankyou for sharing your beautiful boy and memories with us. I remember so well, even years later, that longing that consumes every part of your being..physical, emotional and mental. It takes time...lots of it. Its a long hard road, just focus on surviving each day for now. In time you will notice the good days out number the bad days and then the bad days only come once in a while. Even when you start to heal and feel like you are moving forward the grief will come like waves at sometimes the most unexpected times. Your not crazy, its just part of the process. Hang in there , there are a lot of people praying for you.

Laurie in Ca. said...

Praying for you today as you celebrate Maxson's life. I hope it is more perfect and special than you can dream it to be. As for the pictures, truly a God moment between you and Max, a beautiful and spiritual moment to last a lifetime. My prayers continue for you on this journey of heartbreak, asking God to lift you up daily, and moment by moment. May this day be blessed.

Love and Hugs, Laurie

Laura said...

So beautiful...he is looking right at you and the angels in the room that were with you those precious moments. Praying for you right now as you prepare for Max's service. Praying for your heart...sending love.

Karalyn said...

Absolutely beautiful...

Anonymous said...

Oh, my word, Max is one of the cutest newborns I have ever seen!

~melissa in OR

Susan said...

HE IS SO GORGEOUS! What beautiful eyes...and I know he could see his mama and feel how very much you loved him and that moment and forever. Thinking of you today... as you celebrated Max's short, but oh so important life.

Susan in Indaina

Lesley said...

He is so beautiful...I love those two pictures together. What a precious moment between you...you will always have that time. What a gift from the Lord. We will be praying for your family.

Lesley

AmandaHoyt said...

Oh, he is so beautiful! Still praying for you.
Hugs,
Amanda

Stacy D said...

He is absolutely beautiful...

Continuing to pray for you.

~ Stacy

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful son. I am so sorry for your enormous loss, and I am praying for God's perfect strength to be holding you up through the days and years ahead. I lost my son 25 years ago and still, to this day, I can stumble upon a blog such as yours and feel as if it was yesterday that I anticipated with hope that my Daniel would live. It is only through my faith in Jesus Christ that I have gone on to have a very full life and be happy.
Praying for you both...

petrii said...

What a beautiful boy. To see him gazing at you and holding on to you through those eyes is just beautiful. I've been praying for you and will continue.

Dawn

Stephanie said...

I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you guys. Feel free to reach out if you need to, as I am also walking this long road of grief since loosing my son almost 8 months ago. I know you can relate, although the pain is so strong, the love and joy of having Levi in my life is even stronger. I promise you that God will hold your hand as you take each step one by one. You will be in my thoughts and prayers!

And Max is absolutely beautiful!

Hope Wilson said...

"Answered Prayers"

Stunning...love it!